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it felt awkward when i drove along the usual route today..
it felt even more awkward when i walked down the alley towards 'our' makan place..
pictures from scenes where there used to be TWO people inside them came floating in front me..
it felt very awkward going places and doing things that we used to do without your presence today.

i know it's hard on you too, especially with all the new responsibilities and challenges thrown your way. i could choose to 'influence' you to give up and quit and i know my 'heart' is tempted to do it, but the other side of my heart and my brain stopped me from doing so as i wish not to 'ruin' you.

we're progressing in life but i'm pretty sure we're already missing our 'old' life and our 'old' self. it's funny how our life has changed by just a simple desire to have a better life..not a decision to regret though.

we're going to pull through this test, biiznillah insya Allah...