I HAVE SURVIVED!

...my very first class at this new place. Alhamdulillah. However, it's not my real class as I only 'relieved' the lecturer who was on leave today. It's part of the class sharing policy. Luckily she had already told me what to teach.

My real class will only begin at 12noon today and will end at 6pm with a few intervals in between. Enough time to get my lunch and perform my prayers.

The response was quite ok. I have to admit having bigger class is definitely a challenge as I have to increase my voice volume to adjust to the new surrounding. I did manage to make the students work in group and present their ideas in front of the class. Towards the end of the class I believe I have managed to instill some important 'ideas' or at least, get them cracking about it. My students are TESLians and this morning class were also TESLians of a different intake. I haven't met my real students yet, but if this is the kind of the students that I'm going to face, I believe I am up to the challenge and I am positive that we are going to have a lot of information sharing sessions later on.

This morning I told the TESLian to start treating themselves as teachers. Some students were late, and many refused to sit in the front rows, and many had the difficulties to project their voice so that they can be heard by their friends. So I told them that it's important for them to start practising now to become good teachers in the future. So my dear TESLians out there, if you're still studying, start treating yourselves as teachers and observes the 'code' of teachers hehehe...

Thank you Allah for making this morning a good experience for me.

Jalan kebahagiaan

Dalam senyummu
tersirna tembelang
Dalam manismu
ada hempedu yang merembes dengki
Pada gelak tawamu
terkandung hilai hasad
Dalam keramahanmu
terkandung cita-cita memusnah

Hai si nyamuk penyusah
Betapa busuk seketul daging
di celahan dadamu
Betapa hanyir sejalur lidah
yang hampir di lelangit dan rahangmu
Betapa jiwa jasadmu
kosong gelap dan berbau!

Walau aku beranikan diri menghampirimu
Menjejak kelemahanku demi mencari
damai
Engkau tetap si nyamuk penyusah
yang egois!
Enggan menyerah walau tetap
tersenyum berpura manis
dalam keramahan yang menghinakan
dirimu sendiri!

AKU BUKAN TUHAN!
AKU JUGA TIDAK AKAN BILA-BILA BISA MENJADI TUHAN!

Lantaran itu, di sini sahaja tanggungjawabku.
Moga kau ditunjukkan jalan kebahagiaan...

salam perkenalan...

holla everybody! :)

sedikit janggal hari ini

it felt awkward when i drove along the usual route today..
it felt even more awkward when i walked down the alley towards 'our' makan place..
pictures from scenes where there used to be TWO people inside them came floating in front me..
it felt very awkward going places and doing things that we used to do without your presence today.

i know it's hard on you too, especially with all the new responsibilities and challenges thrown your way. i could choose to 'influence' you to give up and quit and i know my 'heart' is tempted to do it, but the other side of my heart and my brain stopped me from doing so as i wish not to 'ruin' you.

we're progressing in life but i'm pretty sure we're already missing our 'old' life and our 'old' self. it's funny how our life has changed by just a simple desire to have a better life..not a decision to regret though.

we're going to pull through this test, biiznillah insya Allah...