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- mak lenggang, aiko chan, kasya, musnieda, lieawulf - kenapa lama tak post ape2?

I HAVE SURVIVED!

...my very first class at this new place. Alhamdulillah. However, it's not my real class as I only 'relieved' the lecturer who was on leave today. It's part of the class sharing policy. Luckily she had already told me what to teach.

My real class will only begin at 12noon today and will end at 6pm with a few intervals in between. Enough time to get my lunch and perform my prayers.

The response was quite ok. I have to admit having bigger class is definitely a challenge as I have to increase my voice volume to adjust to the new surrounding. I did manage to make the students work in group and present their ideas in front of the class. Towards the end of the class I believe I have managed to instill some important 'ideas' or at least, get them cracking about it. My students are TESLians and this morning class were also TESLians of a different intake. I haven't met my real students yet, but if this is the kind of the students that I'm going to face, I believe I am up to the challenge and I am positive that we are going to have a lot of information sharing sessions later on.

This morning I told the TESLian to start treating themselves as teachers. Some students were late, and many refused to sit in the front rows, and many had the difficulties to project their voice so that they can be heard by their friends. So I told them that it's important for them to start practising now to become good teachers in the future. So my dear TESLians out there, if you're still studying, start treating yourselves as teachers and observes the 'code' of teachers hehehe...

Thank you Allah for making this morning a good experience for me.

Jalan kebahagiaan

Dalam senyummu
tersirna tembelang
Dalam manismu
ada hempedu yang merembes dengki
Pada gelak tawamu
terkandung hilai hasad
Dalam keramahanmu
terkandung cita-cita memusnah

Hai si nyamuk penyusah
Betapa busuk seketul daging
di celahan dadamu
Betapa hanyir sejalur lidah
yang hampir di lelangit dan rahangmu
Betapa jiwa jasadmu
kosong gelap dan berbau!

Walau aku beranikan diri menghampirimu
Menjejak kelemahanku demi mencari
damai
Engkau tetap si nyamuk penyusah
yang egois!
Enggan menyerah walau tetap
tersenyum berpura manis
dalam keramahan yang menghinakan
dirimu sendiri!

AKU BUKAN TUHAN!
AKU JUGA TIDAK AKAN BILA-BILA BISA MENJADI TUHAN!

Lantaran itu, di sini sahaja tanggungjawabku.
Moga kau ditunjukkan jalan kebahagiaan...

salam perkenalan...

holla everybody! :)

sedikit janggal hari ini

it felt awkward when i drove along the usual route today..
it felt even more awkward when i walked down the alley towards 'our' makan place..
pictures from scenes where there used to be TWO people inside them came floating in front me..
it felt very awkward going places and doing things that we used to do without your presence today.

i know it's hard on you too, especially with all the new responsibilities and challenges thrown your way. i could choose to 'influence' you to give up and quit and i know my 'heart' is tempted to do it, but the other side of my heart and my brain stopped me from doing so as i wish not to 'ruin' you.

we're progressing in life but i'm pretty sure we're already missing our 'old' life and our 'old' self. it's funny how our life has changed by just a simple desire to have a better life..not a decision to regret though.

we're going to pull through this test, biiznillah insya Allah...

~:: LiFe iSn'T LiKe a Bed oF RoSeS::~

Hidup tk selalunya indah.. langit tk selalunya cerah... sbg manusia, kita sering  dilanda pasang surut ibarat air di lautan.. turun naiknya graf hidup adalah perkara yg biasa. begitulah khidupan manusia...kdg2 kita di atas.. kdg2 kita di bawah.. selalu sy mengingatkn diri sendiri.. apa2 pon yg blaku, apa2pon yg kite terima, hadapi semuanya adalah ujian dlm hidup kita.. buat cik aiko..tabahkn hati..ingtlah ..ape yg blaku ada hkmahnya.. mungkin AllahSWT nk cik aiko bersiap sedia mengalami perubahan dlm hidup krn lmbt laun cik aiko n sahabat cik aiko akn mempunyai 'life' sendiri nti.. sincerely.. sy turut merasai tempiasnya 'perpisahan' ini...
sy sgt sedey......................................................................
 Buat cik aiko.. terima kasih krn sudi mnjadi kawan yg baik utk sy.. sy mesti rindukn teguran membina daripada cik aiko..dlm ramai2 kwn yg hadir dlm hidup sy. tk rmai yg sudi menegur sy klu sy buat silap..
sejujurnya.. wlaupun sy mmg ade bestest friend a.k.a roomate... tp sy tetap memerlukn kawan spt cik aiko utk jd kawan yg baik buat sy..
utk hari2 yg bakal dhadapi nti.. sy bdoa agar kita sentiasa dilindungiNYA..dijauhi daripada segala kejahatan di langit mahupun di bumi..

Sesungguhnya.. Allah tidak akn membebankn manusia itu dgn bebanan yg tidak dapat ditanggung oleh kita.. kita adalah manusia yg terpilih utk menerima 'kesakitan' ini..
insyaAllah.. semuanya akn baik kelak.. wlau pahit..

"Hai anakku; janganlah engkau langsung menelan sahaja kerana manisnya barang dan janganlah langsung memuntahkan saja pahitnya sesuatu barang itu, kerana manis belum tentu menimbulkan kesegaran dan pahit itu belum tentu menimbulkan kesengsaraan."-dipetik dr Pesanan Luqmanul Hakim

"Bila berpisah...

...selalu gelisah" - aku teringat lirik ni hari ni sebab I'm going to have to 'let go' of a friend who's been very dear and close to my heart. Bukanlah letting go in the sense that I won't be seeing her ever again, cuma mungkin tak sekerap dulu. Aku cuba hiburkan hati dengan mengingatkan diri sendiri dia cuma pindah tempat kerja, bukan pindah 'hati' atau 'pinda' persahabatan.

I know it won't be easy. The next 48hours would be the toughest. Her last day and then her 'absence' at my workplace, her soon-to-be previous workplace. I know I would cry my eyeballs out, but I need to toughen up myself for her, I need to put on the 'heavy make-up' so that the 'show' won't be ruined. But I'm not sure I am that strong. Between me and her, I am the more emotional one, the one who would 'express' herself rather freely...she might seem gentle and fragile, but she's very strong inside. I'm the 'poetic' type or ciwang as they called it in Malay, hence it's easier to see me crying although I appear to be very strong and 'disciplined'. I don't know why lately it has become a rather easy 'task' for me to let tears run down my cheeks though I wish not to do so. Sometimes I am embarrassed with myself for allowing such a small issue to press the tear button..Entahlah, mungkin faktor usia juga memainkan peranan dan juga latarbelakang 'sastera' aku yang buat aku jadi 'cengeng' bak kata dia..

Intan, I just want you to know that whatever happens, I will always be by your side aiding you to the best I can, and will always and forever be your bestest friend. Thank you for being my greatest and most understanding friend for the past 3 1/2 years and I hope this would continue till the end of our time. I know our life is about to change, but I hope it will only make our friendship better and closer. I love you my dearest friend and I hope in the future we will have more and more and more time together. I love you my dearest sister, I love you my bestest friend!